#I'm showing symptoms of rabid chihuahua

[cyanparadis]

When will my writing blog is gonna get deflagged 😭😭😭 ?

[sephiroths-stuff]

Im going to give a flaming hot take because Everytime this post shows up on my dash my fight or flight activates and I foam at the mouth like a rabid Chihuahua who does methamphetamines.

Yes. You are responsible for your actions. That much is 100% true. But not all mental health episodes are created equal. Someone having an intense manic episode where even tho they're medicated and in treatment, they still hallucinate or get paranoid and have a freak out? You should NOT expect them to kowtow to you and beat themselves up and act like they're some awful person for acting how they did when it's literally out of their control. And you DEFINITELY shouldn't abandon them.

Someone lashing out in anger after skipping meds and therapy for a week? Yeah, that's on them and they need to take responsibility, but for reals? Some of you mofos in the comments have never had a psychotic or personality disorder or God forbid be like me and have both and have the symptoms overlap. It's TERRIBLE. I am in regular treatment and take a LOT of medication and sometimes I still have episodes that are like 9000 percent me blacking out and not knowing what happens. I should apologize if harm was done? Yes. But people should have more empathy than to just leave me or someone else in a similar boat over things they are trying to but can't control.

And about just being done with people who don't do what you want or don't behave the right way? That's fucked up. Friends can take breaks but the concept that if someone's mental health journey isn't ideal you just leave someone... It's messed up. That'll likely make them spiral and make them more upset as many disorders are triggered by abandonment. If someone's hurling abuse that's one thing but if the issue is them just being depressed or having issues with like??? Idk hallucinations? Ditching them because "oh it's just hard" bro I'm sure you're not a bed of sunshine either fuck off ya cunt.

Part of why I'm typing this is because I had a best friend once who I always listened to and let vent to me. I was their sounding board and he mine for each other's whole lives. But one day he decided, without ever giving a HINT OR TELLING ME THAT I HAD EVER OVERWHELMED HIM that I had ruined his childhood by venting and I was toxic and terrible and told me I was too much and left me because I'd ruined his childhood and given him trauma as a twelve year old more or less blaming twelve year old me with RAD for everything. Even tho as a child I didn't know any better and as an adult I had never been told by said friend that I was overwhelming. If your friend and you are struggling due to a mental health issue? Be the bigger person and be open. Don't be a jagoff.

Thanks for reading!